Viagra, Dinner Parties, and Dildos: How Did I NOT Know My Husband was Gay?!

Have you ever wondered if your spouse is gay? If you are looking at books on this topic, perhaps you have. Here are some startling statistics that might surprise you: -20 percent of all gay men in America are in a heterosexual marriage-50 percent of all gay men in America have fathered children-40 percent of all lesbians in America are married to a male partner-75 percent of all lesbians have children (Source: verywellmind.com)But, what about their straight spouses? Do they even KNOW? Maryanne O. Blivious didn't This is the sometimes humorous, yet primarily heart-wrenching story of what happens when a woman learns her husband of decades might be gay. Dead dreams, broken promises, a long history of countless lies, and the grief of losing a best friend are coupled with the temptation to simply shoot herself in the head to escape the pain and humiliation she's enduring on an hourly basis. Only the knowledge of the additional pain her children would experience saved her. Maryanne O. Blivious (not her real name...obviously), a middle-aged business owner, and the mother of four children, doesn't understand why the sex life in her marriage is spiraling. Viagra hadn't worked. Neither had weight loss and sexy lingerie. Where had her husband's libido gone? What Maryanne didn't know was that it was, perhaps, never there in the first place. Not with her on his mind anyway. In Maryanne's never-ending pursuit of pleasing everyone but herself, and at the encouragement of her husband of 25 years, she finds herself caught up in the seedy underworld of BDSM. She agrees to start going to sex clubs, private sex parties, and, later, far worse. Before she knows it, she's having sex with strangers while her husband looks on, masturbating at the foot of the bed. From Kool-aid Mom to amateur Dominatrix, Maryanne did it ALL...literally, until the day she finally decided to end it all. This is based a true story. Names, locations, and specific circumstances have been changed to protect the identities of those involved, especially Maryanne's children.