Therapy Changed My Suicidal Thoughts to Self-Love: One Woman's Journey from the Edge of Suicide to the Arms of Self-Love - Paperback

"I felt like killing myself." That's the sentence Paula Axelrod couldn't say out loud, until a poster taped to a dormitory wall gave her somewhere to go.

What followed was twenty years of therapy spent unpacking a childhood ruled by an alcoholic father, a mother's own eating disorder, and a family that made love feel dangerous. It's the story of a miscarriage, a lost sense of self, and the slow, unglamorous work of finding her way back, through psychoanalysis, through painting, and eventually into a forty-year marriage and a son adopted from Romania.

This isn't a polished self help book. It's Paula's own words, unfiltered, a real record of what recovery actually looks like.

This book is for you if:

• You've had suicidal thoughts, or love someone who has
• You grew up with an alcoholic, addicted, or emotionally unavailable parent
• You're in therapy, or wondering if you should be
• You've used food, control, or people-pleasing to survive a painful childhood
• You need proof that healing on the other side of trauma is real

Paula doesn't offer easy answers. She offers her own life as evidence: the wound you carry from childhood doesn't have to be the end of your story.

A quick, powerful read, start to finish in one sitting. Includes the author's own watercolor paintings and the recovery meal plan she built with her nutritionist.

If you or someone you love is struggling, please know: there is help, and there is a life on the other side worth living.